Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Back To The Grind
So I am back to the daily grind....... Back in the office..... It's going OK though -glad to be back - I was starting to go stir crazy at home....
I have been thinking a lot about good luck items, prayers, superstitions etc. etc. I am trying to cover all bases. I say my prayers daily, I have a Virgin Mary candle lit at almost all times in my house, I have the Guatemalan Fertility God. Also - last night Katia (a friend at work) made me a Ju Ju..... I guess it is an African symbol of luck etc.... She drew it, colored it etc. and it is beautiful. She has some finishing touches to do - once it is complete I will post it up here.
I have put a copy of the picture of my embryos at my desk - everytime I look at them it reminds me to stay calm and stress free. It is so awful what infertility does to a woman though. I feel like I can't be hopeful or excited about any of this. I also feel like even having the picture at my desk might be going too far - maybe I shouldn't even be looking at these. I have to constantly think of my every move - can't lift anything heavy, I am staying away from stairs, what I eat, taking my shots and vitamins etc. etc. It will be nice when hopefully one day this ends.
Possible good sign - my bosses wife's best friend has been going through IVF pretty much at the same time I have. She just found out last night she was pregnant. I think they implanted two embryos.
So - that is all the random thoughts for now. Keep them prayers coming!!
I have been thinking a lot about good luck items, prayers, superstitions etc. etc. I am trying to cover all bases. I say my prayers daily, I have a Virgin Mary candle lit at almost all times in my house, I have the Guatemalan Fertility God. Also - last night Katia (a friend at work) made me a Ju Ju..... I guess it is an African symbol of luck etc.... She drew it, colored it etc. and it is beautiful. She has some finishing touches to do - once it is complete I will post it up here.
I have put a copy of the picture of my embryos at my desk - everytime I look at them it reminds me to stay calm and stress free. It is so awful what infertility does to a woman though. I feel like I can't be hopeful or excited about any of this. I also feel like even having the picture at my desk might be going too far - maybe I shouldn't even be looking at these. I have to constantly think of my every move - can't lift anything heavy, I am staying away from stairs, what I eat, taking my shots and vitamins etc. etc. It will be nice when hopefully one day this ends.
Possible good sign - my bosses wife's best friend has been going through IVF pretty much at the same time I have. She just found out last night she was pregnant. I think they implanted two embryos.
So - that is all the random thoughts for now. Keep them prayers coming!!
